‘Doomed by the Narrative’ No More
After scratching off a winning lottery ticket, is it normal to think “nobody I know IRL will ever see me again”?
Maybe that’s what Faye did.
Missing person’s police report was filed exactly a week ago, today, still no body found.
Link to the report can be found here as I can’t get myself to upload bad pictures of Miss Reagan.
We have one “sister” that was quick to post this to her Instagram story, and the screenshot dates either the evening of the 6th (before the report) or immediately on the day of the report. Conflicting Redditers weigh in.
Before we believe the “sister,” let’s consider Jordan could actually be very jealous of her older sibling. I’m the eldest of 5 girls and if I went missing, ALL FOUR of my siblings would be real quick to throw a RIP on social media and then proceed to continue with their shitty lives.
OR let’s consider, she loves her sister ‘for real’, and she’s in on this facade. With her “confirmation of death,” the manhunt is weakened, and perhaps Faye is on a beach right now after boarding a bus, and then a one-way cruise, out of the country, with a very generous wealthy fan.
A man or woman who wants to help give her peace outside of Sin City, and perhaps Faye asked her sister to post something, to escape the “Vegas escort narrative.”
Let’s run it back thou, to where ‘doomed by the narrative‘ all started:
It’s October 2016. There, I’m just a stripper at a hole in the wall strip club. I’m also a part-time lobster shack waitress, but bored and seeking more money so I can disappear myself to Pennsylvania.
‘Lexi Belle’ is still a relevant porn star and she’s in a VIP area, wearing cat ears, waiting to get on stage for feature dancing.
She’s taking selfies with her bodyguard and then bored on her phone. So, I sit down next to her, introduce myself as just a dancer, and ask her a few questions. She was bubbly, and happy to chat with a younger ‘fan.’
She politely asked me how I ‘liked’ the club, and I asked her how she ‘liked’ the adult industry… with just one girl in mind:
Faye Reagan.
Faye was the first girl I watched in actual porn. C.J. told me she was “his favorite performer” when we first met. I hadn’t ever watched porn before (despite attempting to ‘make some’ while losing my virginity), and watching Faye was so interesting to me.
Sure, she was a ‘mattress actress’, but she was also an American Apparel model, a lover, and a girl with a unique beauty.
A fun style, presence… a different voice, and performance ‘attitude’.
Silly charm, sassy scripts.
An “all-American,” bold, unapologetic, southern belle. A real beauty. A raw natural beauty.
If she is really dead, that’s angel robbery.
…It was clear to me that Faye loved her (ex) boyfriend. She liked sex with him from what I watched. They had chemistry.
Her ex-boyfriend, Dane Cross, has a very attractive dick, and of course it looks pretty identical to C.J.
Lexi, Dane, and Faye all shot a scene together while Miss Belle was still “a newbie” in the industry just starting. Lexi was younger and had short hair in their XXX video.
Faye is clearly still ‘the girlfriend’ during this time. She is getting pushed on the head of Dane’s dick to take every inch, while Lexi giggles and only takes about half with her face, when it’s her turn to suck it.
The sass, and the play fighting is cute… It’s putting the ‘actress into the mattress.’
This was before Faye’s eyes went dark. This was before any hardcore drugs, abusive costars, or a hard to watch James Dean ‘scene’.
Lexi Belle is right in front of me, and the closest I can get to talking to Faye, so I ask her “If she knows how Faye still is?”
Lexi gets uncomfortable immediately, and says “Oh we don’t talk about what happened to her…”
I’m horrified, asking “What do you mean?”
She just repeats herself “It’s all just really sad, she was a nice girl..”
“Faye… is… was… ??” – I’m trying to make sense of what she is saying, and Lexi won’t look at me anymore.
“Just can’t talk about it, noooo,” Lexi says one more time, before she gets up, and has someone from club management asking her “If she’s ready?”
At 24 years old, I don’t consider that maybe Lexi is a mean girl, older than me and batting for Satan, so instead I search internet forums for more information.
You can’t believe everything you read on the internet, and where there’s one troll, there’s plenty… More evil was found.
Drugs, rumors of disease…
“She’s been dead“, one rando writes, “she killed herself after the breakup“, another writes…
After enough people claimed, ‘she killed herself’, I believed it (back then).
I believed this, because at 24 years old (at the time), and separated from the only man I had ever submit to, surrendered to, and enjoyed… I wanted to die too, now living a life without purpose.
Que the rest of 2016 thru 2022, where my life was empty, and the hole in my soul couldn’t be filled.
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So, I truly believed Faye Reagan was no longer ‘one with this earth’, until March of 2022, when Faye suddenly showed up on Twitter and Reddit with a new (ex) boyfriend. A photo shared from a 2021 Christmas party:
‘Allen’ and Faye had their own joint accounts, and I immediately message them on Reddit, after seeing they’ve been online for all of 2021 apparently. (Twitter was shorter-lived in just 2022 @ demlitnlovrs)
My ‘invitation to chat’ gets accepted with a Reddit response, while I’m out to dinner for the first time in two years after c0vid lockdown. I was shocked, and I can still remember watching my phone light up on the dinner table, while half listening to girlfriends’ ramble about their stupid lives.
Obviously, I couldn’t approach Faye with talk of porn or Lexi, but I was just so happy to see that the haters and trolls were wrong. She was alive, and not dead! She wasn’t “escorting at a legal whore house,” like the rumors had said, she was just trying to exist as a normal person. A person with love left to share.
… but then the accounts get deactivated by the summer, and she was gone again.
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Bottomline, I refuse to believe Faye lost the battle with all evil.
Jail and prison aren’t the same, perhaps there was a mix up of felonies in those missing person photos, but she has no convictions.
Peace, love, and respect -she said…
I can’t help but wonder where she would be right now if she had started up the OnlyFans right in that moment of time.
The short-lived Twitter gave her zero dollars, but a subscription fanbase could have given her so much. She didn’t need Allen, or Dane. She only needed God, and faith.
We (the fans) could have respected if she kept new things strictly modeling, or safe for work only, after quitting a toxic video/mainstream industry.
A book, or a podcast; the possibility of new life success in 2025 is endless when you are that beautiful.
So yeah, call me in denial about drugs possibly winning here, but I have to believe Faye is somehow well-protected. She’s beating the odds.
She’s getting help, I hope. She’s just seeking safety away from Vegas. She’s just trying to find peace.
Peace, love, and respect, forever and always
-Mae Fenmore
I genuinely hope she’s okay too, good read.